I will find victory!

I’m a little disappointed in +.8 this week. Of course, being that I had ALL my favorites at the grad party, it could have been so much worse.

I will find victory.

I will find victory in the fact that as stressed as I got at one point or another, I turned to Jesus, not food.

I will find victory in the fact that I ate 3 cookies, not 3 plate fulls.

I will find victory that in my favorites, there were healthy options for me and others!

I will find victory in ONLY +.8 when it could have easily been +8 (you know it’s true)

I will find victory in that I am an overcomer!

I will find victory that tomorrow is a new day!

I will find victory in that I’m still a loser (overall) and that makes me a winner!

as of late....

So I weighed in Tuesday, was thrilled, -2.2.  Total since back to WW, -15! 

Phyllis’s party is Satruday, and we have another party Sunday. Of all the things I am stressed out about… what the heck I’m going to eat on Saturday is top of the list! I want to have whatever I want, there’s a reason why I chose the food I did, I love it!!  And let’s just not forget that I could eat my weight (which is a lot) in homemade potato salad (I’m completely serious about this!). 

My next goal is –20.  I’m giving myself a month.  1 month, 5 lbs, seems reasonable.  Starting Sunday I will be running again.  I have put off my training long enough, I have to get in the game.  I have been so busy, but I need to make it a priority and I will be running 5 & 10K’s as some added ‘fun’.  Fun?  I know… not really.  So soon I’ll be checking for them.

So that’s it.  Stressed about eating…  yikes… 

I did download the free Craving God devotional onto my nook, it was free!  So I think that will also help, you can get it online too, delivered right to your emailbox.

Check out the website http://madetocrave.org/

Fat Club

I joined the fat club at work.  I was the first girl.  You put in $100 and in 12 weeks (or something) you need to lose 10 pounds. It’s totally doable in a safe way and it’s good motivation.  If you lose the 10 pounds, you get your money back, and anyone who doesn’t, their money goes into the pool and divided amongst anyone who does.

Soooo…. By the standards of every scale I weigh on, I’m there, EXCEPT the scale at work.  I seriously think it’s broken! I weigh in today, so I don’t know what the WW scale will same (I’m hoping for -2.2) and I’m going to be close by the changes in my scales.

I am trying not to think about it, I weigh in June 30, it is what it is.  I know that I’ve done a good job in making choices of what to eat and what not to eat.  I’ve counted my points, even yesterday, I was hungry, I didn’t have any points left for the day (I had 36 points left from my extra) but since today is weigh in day, I chose strawberries instead of anything else.

Of course we want to win.  But thankfully, this battle, it’s already won by the Lord, I just need to stay in His path, He will take care of it all.


James 4:1 What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don’t they come from your desires that battle within you?


P.S I bought a pair of Capri's about 6 weeks ago... they were kind of tight... yesterday I got them off, without struggle and i didn't have to unbutton or unzip them :)

Everyday is a struggle

Everyday is a struggle for me, especially when I'm tired, when I'm emotional.

Today was one of the those days.  I'm both.  So on days like to day, I try to find victory in the smallest of things.  I passed on a cupcake (I did!) and I didn't eat mayo because it wasn't the olive oil kind (I did that too).

It might not seem like a big deal, however, we make millions of choices in our lifetime, they make up who we are, and today, I am successful!

Why I passed on ice cream...

Yesterday my name was on the board for a free Medium Ice cream sundae at a local Dairy Queen near my house. Let me tell you I was so excited to see my name that I almost drove off the road. True Story.


I had decided that I would go after I got done grocery shopping, I had also decided that I might just eat that for lunch instead of real food. True Story.

I love grocery shopping. I mean I LOVE LOVE LOVE it! I was thinking about how much weight I had lost so far, last week -4.6, -11.6 total for 6 weeks. I think about this while grocery shopping because it helps me to stay on track.

I have PCOS. Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. I am on 3 different meds to get rid of it. FOR GOOD. A big part of PCOS has to do with insulin production, and I am on Metphormin that is a treatment for Diabetes. I hate being on meds, but I also hate feeling like crap more. Another thing I am on is Adipex. This one I really hate. It makes me hyper and increases the rate of my heart. It is indeed a ‘diet pill’. I didn’t want to go on it, and I take half the prescribed dose because the doc did say that one full pill might be too much.

Anyway back to the ice cream. I decided that I want to get healthy. And we did have Roma’s the night before. And so I decided that I did not need the ice cream. I want to be healthy, I was thinking about how I want to live a long healthy life. In church on Sunday, Phyllis put her head on my shoulder as we were listening to the pastor teach. And as I thought about that ice cream, I thought, I’d like to have my granddaughter do that while we are sitting in church. It might mean that I will have to pass on ice cream sometimes, but I think it will be worth it.
On my mom's side...  my grandma never met me, my mom never met Phyllis... I'd like to break that cycle.

Sharing my Journey

I’m pretty excited about my weightloss this week!  -4.6 pounds!  Last week was +1.6 so seeing that number was pretty freaking awesome!  The best part? They asked me what brought me back to WW and I got to tell them, Jesus!  And the woman in front of me said ‘I’m not very religious, but I pray’.  Hmmm… maybe this is going to be a time to share the love of Jesus with her!  Every week I can’t wait to encourage her! 

I was thinking about the verse Josh 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”

So true!  Don’t be discouraged. I thought I could have easily gone back to the old way of eating, skipped WW all together but this is my journey right now. It’s hard and exciting! 

I hit my first and second goal this week!  Woo hoo!!

It is what it is...

This past week has been crazy.  when you fail to plan you plan to fail.  isn't that my personality?  I'm such a planner.

It was a crazy week, followed by a crazy weekend of pizza.

I weighed in...  +1.6 OUCH!  but it does not define me.

I made every choice to put that food in my mouth to end up with the results I did.

When I sent my little Phyllis a text she said 'good thing there's next week'.  She's so supportive.

I've been really tired at night lately.  Trouble getting off the couch.  That's not like me.  Gonna get back on my some of my supplements, I've been off them for awhile and I think I need to get back on them!

I'm going to the endcrinologist today about my PCOS.  Not sure what he will say, but I'm excited (kind of) to kick this in the butt and move on!

It's a week ahead of good choices!