Free!

If the Son sets you free, you are free indeed! John 8:35


So today, the day that I decide that the only choice is a good one! I am sure that there will be days when I want ice cream (and get it) but not today!

I posted earlier about no bread and no dairy. It is what is best for me!

Did you know that stress can make you fat?

Oh, I’ve got a double scoop of stress today.

But my God is bigger than that!

Yes, I struggle with food. The first thing I want to reach for when life gets a little crazy! Ice cream, pizza, yum! But I know that is no way to live, trapped in a prison I built myself! I am an overcomer! I have overcome so much because of His love and grace, and this too will be overcome! I will be free!!!

I stopped today and got a Lebanese salad with chicken today and it was sooooo good! I think I could eat them EVERY day! And I just might.

You see, my life is different. I have joy and peace and it lives in me! But who can see it hiding behind all this fat. I wonder if people judge me, heck, I judge myself. I hate that about me. I hate that my pants are too tight, that I don’t look cute!

I hate a lot of things… but one thing I know of… whatever is ahead of me is NOT bigger than the power behind me!

SO HERE I GO!

And God be with me, I am meeting with some beautiful ladies… and they chose to go out for Milkshakes… that will be a water for me please!

light overcame darkness!

Does the word vacation frighten you a little?  It does me.  I almost always overeat on vacation.  I hate that about me, and I don't know why I do it, knowing the consequences, quite frankly not sure why I do it the days I'm not on vacation too.

We are up in Traverse City for a long weekend.  WOW!  it's been so great!  I've also been eating well and today I got my second run in the morning!  Yesterday 2.8 miles, this morning 3.  There's a sub close that I can run it, and so I am happy to report I got in two good runs.  Maybe not long ones, but at the end of them both I felt exhilarated and a little tired at the same time.  That is a good run.  Once I finished cooling down I remembered why it is that I loved to run last year. 

I try to only listen to music that is honoring to God so that when I run, it is full on worship.  Today I contemplated the first 5 verses of John 1 (insprired by Chilly.)
¹ In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. ² He was with God in the beginning. ³ Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. ⁴ In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind. ⁵ The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.

I was thinking about how hard sometimes it really is to run.  how hard it is to run when you are fat!  But sometimes I just know that God created me for something way more than just to be fat.  He created me to be an overcomer!  and sometimes I have to really fight off the "you're too's" that have been said to me in my life, and all the things that I hate about myself.  But here's the crazy thing, and you might just know that I've gone over the deep end loving Jesus when I say this...

God's light shines in my life, into my heart, so when the darkness comes and tries to steal my joy, from the reminders of double chins, fat stomachs, wide hips, a big butt, that the shape I am is a circle instead of a pretty hourglass, I am reminded that I can overcome, that God's light shines in the darkness, that I can do this, I can be a marathon finisher (not sure if I can run the whole thing) in October, and that it means that each week, I must add 2-3 miles to my long runs, but I can do it, because it's just 1/2 mile a run.  I can do that.  That's easy :)  I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Phil 4:13).

Look out darkness, you're about to be overcome!!!!